Welcome to my testimony page.
I want to share with you how I became a Christian and why I think you should too, if you’re not already.
(Why here? Because I don’t want to be seen as a coward by God and I’d truly like for many to come to know the glory of the God I serve.)
Man’s ultimate aim
I believe that the ultimate aim of all men and women is to be pleasure seekers. People should make it their highest goal to pursue pleasure until they’re worn out from it, and then start all over again.
I’m not speaking of pleasure the world offers. Stuff (money, grand car, big house, et al) and vanity (fame, recognition, et al) are of little value. It carries with it the promise of fulfilment—of joy—but it leaves people only partway filled and only for a short time. This causes people to seek the next high; to seek the next big thing.
The problem is, it never comes.
The promises of worldly pleasure is not in line with reality, therefore it is not true pleasure. (The definition of truth: that which lines up with reality. Worldly pleasure is then everything but a provider of true joy.)
The kind of pleasure I’m talking about was mentioned many millennia ago by someone far wiser—and much braver—than me. This man knew where ultimate pleasure was to be found.
He said the following: You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures for evermore.
If you don’t know yet, it’s King David who said this. And he said it of a very specific person; he said it about the God I serve: Yahweh. (This is the name of God in Hebrew.)
Now, if a man far wiser than myself said this, should I not follow in his footsteps and seek the pleasure he was speaking of?
If someone walks past you with a real brick of gold and tells you that you can get the same down the road for free, are you going to ignore the opportunity?
I don’t think so!
And that’s why I try to make it my life’s purpose to be a seeker of ultimate pleasure.
These thoughts, by the way, are not my own. I’ve read the likes of John Piper and have made many of his ideas, which I’m sure he learnt from others, my own.
My early life
I was born to a difficult father and a mother who suffered from depression. This combination served as base for a turbulent childhood.
I attended the Dutch Reformed church as young boy, but I always found an excuse to not become a Christian.
There was a discrepancy between what I saw in the Bible and the way Christians lived, and this was my excuse for not believing in God.
At the end of the nineties, numerous individuals crossed my path who had some form of faith.
At the same time I started growing tired of my own hypocrisy. See, it was easy to point a finger to other people (my parents, for instance) and their hypocrisy, but the moment I saw myself for what I was, it was an eye opener.
I was a user of people; a hater of people; a young man who despised his parents and friends and had no joy or purpose for living.
I’d go out over weekends and get stone drunk, only to come home feeling empty. I was in a deep pit of despair.
By God’s grace, I started looking into the mirror of truth. I didn’t like what I saw, but it was a necessary gaze.
I realised I need someone to save me from this pit.
I also faced this nagging question: where would I go if I die?
For all my bravado I was, in reality, a scared little boy.
But God, who is rich in mercy and slow to anger, slowly but surely drew me to Himself.
I remember waking up one day, not wanting to do wrong things anymore; not wanting to pursue evil the way I used to.
I started developing a strong desire to find out more about God. I started going to church services.
The problem was, I found it hard to understand why there were so many denominations and interpretations of the Bible. In fact, I didn’t take the Bible as God’s literal word. I didn’t take it seriously.
I started going to the Word of Faith movement’s services. At first I found the happenings there fascinating, but I felt neglected by God because I didn’t fall down or speak in tongues as other people did. I prayed earnestly for God to reveal Himself to me in a tangible way; to help me speak in tongues or let me fall down when someone prays over me.
At that time I ran into an old friend of mine at a conference held in Uitenhage. He challenged me as to the Word of Faith’s teachings, telling me to measure it against the Bible.
At first I thought that the dude just didn’t understand the workings of God, and that some or other time he’d get with the programme.
But what he said nagged at me. I started reading the Bible and seeing that what happens in the Word of Faith movement is not of God.
I got so despondent that I left all forms of church and backslid into a lifestyle of whateverness. I was hopelessly unhappy but not willing to just go to any church that claimed they were Christian yet practised nonsense.
This despair finally drove me to go visit this same friend of mine, who at that stage was living in Cape Town, doing mission work there. I drove through in my beat-up yellow Toyota Corolla and he encouraged me to seek a church that held the Bible in high regard.
I came back and eventually started going to Jeffreys Bay Bible Church, after trying on a few different denominations.
Somewhere along the line I came to the realisation that I’m a hopeless sinner; an enemy of a very holy God who hates the fact that I don’t want to turn from self to embrace His Son, whom he’d hung on a cross to die for me.
I repented of my sin and embraced the work of Jesus Christ on the cross. (I do this daily, by the way.) I could not bare my sin alone. I was, and still am, not willing to face a holy God on judgement day, holding on to my own righteousness.
Am I perfect?
Positionally, yes. Practically, no.
The righteousness of Jesus Christ was transferred to me the day I began to believe. From that day, a process (painfully slow, in my case) started which is changing me to become more like my Saviour.
When will you turn from yourself, to Jesus Christ?
I urge you to take a look at yourself. If you have not turned to God for the forgiveness of your sin, today is the day of salvation.
If you think you’re OK and that you’re basically a good person, you’re not measuring yourself against the right person. Anyone can look righteous when placed next to Hitler or a rapist. When you place yourself next to a holy God, the scale weighs heavily against you.
God will not look favourably upon you on the day of judgement, if you rejected the salvation He wrought. It cost Him dearly; it cost Him the life of his Son. You should not reject it.
How can you gain forgiveness of your sin and eternal life?
Realise that God is a holy God and not like us and that His wrath rests on those who do not turn to Him.
Numbers 23:19 God is not man, that he should lie, or a son of man, that he should change his mind. Has he said, and will he not do it? Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it?
Job 38: 4 “Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding.”
Colossians 3: 5 & 6 Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. 6 Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.
Realise that you’re a sinner.
Romans 3: 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.
Realise that God expects of you to be perfect.
Matthew 5: 48 You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Realise that you can’t be perfect.
1 John 1: 8 If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.
Turn to Jesus Christ and accept, by faith, His work on the cross.
Acts 16:31 They said, “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved, you and your household.”
Romans 10:9-10 that if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved; 10 for with the heart a person believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation.
John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.
Acts 3: 19 Repent therefore, and turn back, that your sins may be blotted out…
John 6: 37 All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out.
Is there any other way besides Jesus?
Consider what Jesus Himself said: “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”
I’ve been serving the Lord since around 1999 and it’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me. It’s not the nicest thing, and it didn’t bring me riches and honour like so many of my charismatic friends might claim, but to face life without Jesus just won’t make sense to me.
Like Peter said: “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.”
Let the journey of following Jesus begin today still. You will face hardships and scorn, but you will find ultimate joy and you’ll be on the side of the Creator of the universe.
I thank you for reading this. May the Lord I serve grant you great mercy.